Mixed Feelings

Yay??? Supposed to be happy that I'll be able to start work tomorrow, but somehow, dunno why I get this feeling of dread. Maybe its due to the fact that this is my second time working, and will not be used to work life. Anyway, I dont even know what I'll be doing, except my post is assistant, assist what? Haha, maybe simply put, its office boy. But, I remember telling myself I'll never work in an office, cause I dont really like 9-5 jobs. Then again, mine is 730-430. :(

Anyway, I just hope to start the poly term soon. And speaking of poly, a few more weeks and I'll have to apply for a place there. Still wondering what course to take. Hai yo. So much thinking to do, and have not used my brain for 2 months already.

Actually, dont really feel like studying anymore, dont really know what I want in life. Its like all seemed gone since JC. No goal in sight to work towards, or motivation or whatsoever.

Ok lah. Maybe it won't be so bad. Trust in God, commit every day in His hands. Thats one of my NYR right? ppl at work better not dee siow me tomorrow, or else...