Its more blessed to give than to receive

Its more blessed to give than to recieve. But I'm always on the receiving end. On Saturday, Wei Liang gave me a tie, though I already bought one for myself, but thanks anyway! Its a real nice tie. And also Chin Ting gave me a planner for 2008 and 2009. Thanks Chin Ting for all the encouragement! God must have answered my prayers, cause I also wanted to buy a planner for myself! : )

Then on Sunday night went to Changi Airport Fish & Co. for dinner, at the same time to celebrate Alvin Jr. Birthday. Ate 3 plates to fish and chips, (some are leftovers) and 3 plates of the cake, burp. : )

Anyway, just came back from today's A level Chinese paper. ok, finished in 1hr +.
Then later went to look for CT to sign my withdrawal form. Thought withdraw from JC can just run far far away, but noooo, got so many admin matters to settle; got to cancel my student pass.
Need to pay adult fair, oh...

looking for a job now. dont know what to work as.

read up on some courses SP has to offer and here's what I think I MAY take:

Civil Engineering. Wanted to take this course as I luvvvv physics, though I only managed to scrap through physics in JC. But some ppl say this course is abit dry. Hai ya, dry so what? can it be worse than JC? dont think so.

Then there's Biomedical Science. But this one must study until a much higher level than can really experience the 'fullness'. So must work hard to get into U. And there's also the Chemistry component that I really detest.

And thats about it, not really interested in other courses.

Time to enjoy my 6 months holiday. : )

1 blue form + 1 result slip - report book = failed

today was D day for my class. Not for me though, I was act quite happy, finally out of JC. A total of 12 ppl out of 22 ppl from my class did not make it. quite a lot huh?

saw a lot of sad faces today. bet lots of ppl cried.

But still there's a bunch of ppl that I wanna thank!

1. God for healing me of my fever
2. great friends who brought in laughter and fun.
3. dedicated and caring tutors
4. PW team mates for always doing all the work
5. SP for granting me a scholarship (dunno whether am I accepted already)
6. great canteen vendors for the cheep cheep food. (chiak buay pah one the food)
7. ............and also MOE for setting the A level syllabus so tub tub until I withdrew to poly.

Goodbye to you

Ok, I'll be getting back my results tmr, and I know that I'll fail. So, here's a song to my school SRJC and my class 1S15.

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sick

aww, got high fever last night. 42 degrees. slept at 6 yesterday, puked the whole day. woke up today at 8 with a bad headache. then slept again until 12. Now feeling better. So obviously, I didn't go to school today. wonder how my group is cooping for today's OP, when I'm not there.

Its not that I'm that important, but they lack the manpower and I think Sit also didn't go to school today, so thats 3 ppl doing 5 ppl job.

And I'm gonna miss my last training today. thought I could shoot for one last time. But then...
Oh well, its goodbye to SR in a few days time.

here's some picture I took in SR over the last few months.

I thought JCs were supposed to be co-ed


Shooting Club

9 more days

.Got back final results today. Confirm cannot promote already. Think there about 8 ppl in my class who cannot make it to JC 2 next year. And I'm the only one withdrawing to poly.

Maybe I can do better in Poly as there's the scholarship that will drive me forward. Must be in the top 5% of the cohort each year if not no $$$. Unlike JC, where I study fail, don't study also fail. So, after awhile I sort of like gave up. No thanks to all who have told us that we wouldn't make it.

Chinese - S
GP - E
Literature - E
Math - U
Econs - U
Physics - E

9 more days to last day in SR.

Gonna miss my class. SRJC 1S15 class of 2007 - 2007. lol.

Notice I like to countdown right?

Fats

Oh no, since after my promos, I'v put on another 4kg! Argg! Now I'm 67kg, hope I will not kena any TAF club or anything like that. And my eating habits are more or less the same as before, ok lah, I eat a bit more now.

Conclusion? JC kills your appetite.

And yay! cause its 11 more days to the end of school, I really mean THE END of school.
Then its working until April next year. Can't wait to go to poly, I'm soooooo excited!

And checked, sadly, there's no shooting in poly, Awww.
But never mind, can still join Dragon Boat or canoeing. I just can't wait!

Giving away all my JC1 stuff away, all my notes, textbooks, all giving away, or maybe throwing away. Whew, finally, I'm going to be out of JC.

And please don't hate me for running away from JC, but I really can't it anymore. Sigh. Though JC life has been a bit fun. Friends were great, teachers were awesome, even the bookshop uncle was amazing, photocopying lecture notes can add up to $200+? Thats why he's so amazing.

And I have a song to dedicate to SRJC. Though not now, when I'm really out, then maybe I'll post the song on my blog, okie?

Job recomendations?

Ponned shooting training yesterday and today. Go also will get killed by Ms Lin and Mr Ng for ponning so many trainings. And also no point training also. Going poly next year.

... all the sad and happy thoughts.

Maybe will go for next Wednesday's training. Its the last training for me.
Gonna take some pictures of the range and my gun for memory's sake.

Feel much more relaxed already. Left only with PW, Chinese A level is on the 29th Oct. Don't know whether to go or not.

Then there are still some ppl asking me since I'm going to poly already, why bother to put in effort and time in PW?

Well, cause its because I don't pang sei my group members. And who knows, PW may be of use to me in the future? I dont know.

Then, gonna look for job, cause poly only starts in April next year, and I dont wanna waste half a year doing nothing, just like how I spent my 1st 3 months; doing nothing.

So, if anybody got job recomendations, can inform me please???????

Then yesterday met Mr Phay outside the staff room. He looked at us and he looked like he was damn sad and disapointed. Maybe cause we flunked our Econs. Then he said something which nearly made me explode with embaressment and shame.

He said: "...Don't be soooo stupid like one of my students, fail then say go poly. What the fish man. Why give up so easily? I know some students who took 3 years to complete JC and now they are doing very well....."

That made me think twice about going to poly. Ai ya, but then, think JC is not suitable for me, and maybe poly siuts me better.

And, if I go poly, I can qualify for some SP scholorship, fees will be borned by them, everything, but I have to remain in the top 5% in the cohort every year. wah, in JC I was the rock bottom student, then in poly, must be one of the top. Poly must be quite easy hor?

About me

You have a very strong personality and people will find it hard to understand you. You are more likely to suffer in your younger years. You might be also the one responsible to look out for your family. You often suffer all the way through life. You will learn life in a very practical way. You are the one who will fight for justice and may even die in the war too.! You are normally very reserved with a handful of friends and most of the time, live life alone and always prepared to help others. However, once you settle down, (which is often late), then your had lucks will disappear. You will face unexpected problems such as encountering poisonous animals, and accidents. You are highly- disciplined, persistence, and courageous, and it is your strength that will take you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter! courtersy of Kelly.

Hey, I don't normally believe in these kinda of things. But think that this is quite true, esp the part about suffering all the way through in life, and the part about me having few friends. Yup, I've got very little true friends.

But no so true for the disciplined and courages part. I gave up after failing in JC1. So, I'm not that determined and much of a fighter.

The irony of life

Today got my final paper back, math. Got a U for it. So that goes my only hope of getting promoted to JC2. Got only 17.5/90 points, and I needed 30 to promote.

Then, some of the pai kia in my class, the ponners, smokers, jokers, managed to do well and get promoted. Some pon lectures, go smoke, sleep in class and play the fool, and only God knows how they managed to get promoted.

Those who didn't have tuition like yang, also managed to score about 50 points. Maybe its because I have tuition until very late thats why I don't have to time to go revise my work.

Its really not fair, not to those who really worked hard, but I didn't expect all the pai kia to do real well and get promoted, and ppl like me who never pon a single lecture, handed up my tutorials and payed att. in class to fail.

... such is the irony of life.

think I'm the lowest in my class with only 17.5 points.

So now, poly........ or retain?

Really don't know what to do. then I've already paid for my A level MT and PW fees. now I'm not taking them.

But surprising, I felt happy when I received my math paper. maybe its because I'm going to poly, where I think there's not so much stress and things to worry about. Then I can maybe have a life, which I don't have much of it now. Go poly what do what course? Civil Engineering? It was my 3rd choice. Then CCA? Wanted to join Dragon Boat or canoeing. Maybe if there's shooting, then maybe I'll join, then compete with my ex-shooters in SR. maybe there's better guns in poly?

But at the same time, I also feel bitter, bitter cause I've just wasted a year of time, effort and money. Spent a lot on lecture notes, tuition and misc.
Why must such things happen to ppl like me, and not others.

D Day is no longer D Day. Cause my results now no longer mean a thing to me now.

Clearing my locker tomorrow.

this post is untitled, cause I don't know what to name it.

Today no school, so did PW in Sits house, went back at 1, got caught in the rain. Forgot to bring umbrella. Slipped and fell. Whatever can go wrong will go wrong.

So today, my blister became worse, the entire patch was a piece of jelly. Burst it a couple of times but after awhile it would like, um grow back. So I bit off a piece of my skin, so that the fluid would not accumulate inside. So the fluid is like flowing out everytime, even as I'm typing this, the fluid is also flowing out.


biggest blister I'd ever had.

Tomorrow going to school to review the econs and physics paper. D day is coming in a couple of more days.

D Day: 25 Oct

Welcome to my emo post.

Today felt damn bad, knowing that promos are gone, all my hard work and effort has gone down the drain. Today is just one if those days where you feel that everything isn't going right for you, whatever you want to happen doesn't happen, and all that you dread, you finally come face to face with it.

Just like me, I always thought that I would pass and get into the U. But sadly, it doesn't happen. Instead, I flunked my promos and now, blank.

And If I get promoted, I'm also very scared that I'll not be able to do well in A levels, then by that time, I'll not have anymore 2nd chance.

So now just doing my PW, then once PW is over, and I can't get promoted, then, go poly already. But its also not that bad, at least I have holidays until April next year. So in the meantime, maybe I can find some job first.

So anyway, today went to church, then had dinner at ECP. Burnt myself as some ppl bumped into me while I was carrying some food and the hot food burnt my hand. then the blister started forming until it was quite big, the rest of my thumb was like numb.
Ouch! swollen palm.

Wish I could find something that I'm really good at, then maybe I won't feel so useless whenever I hang out with other people.

Getting math results on tuesday. my only chance to get promoted lies on this paper. make it or break it.

D Day: 25 oct. I dread this day.

untitled

Blogging now cause can't get to sleep, though tomorrow must get up early to attend Alvin and Wendy's wedding.

Just got my results today, ya, now in a dilemma, go poly, or retain one more year?

Weighed the pros and cons of going to a poly.

Pros:
more slack
more sleep
more fun
can get a diploma and start work
more time for myself
and am sure there are a lot more pros

Cons:
waste a year
go NS late
may not go Uni
- no degree and cannot get my dream job

More pros than cons, so maybe, I'll go poly.

But, for my dream job, I may continue in JC and get a degree. and if i go to the poly, i'll also have to give up shooting, which i enjoy alot.

Very confused now, feeling both sad and excited.
sad cause I wasted a year, both time and money and effort. Its like i just threw away 2007 like that.
Then excited cause i may enter a new phase next year, I'll get to experience what poly life is like, this kinda stuff.

What am I to do? confused. a rush of mixed emotions.

D day

Today I got my results back, except for math, cause I just took the paper on thursday, and will get it back next week.

So, passed GP and Literature only. Got S for Chinese, Physics. Ungraded for econs.

need 30 points to promote, now got only 17.5. so I'll need at least a C for math, and a miracle. If not, can say bye bye to JC and go poly. But i highly doubt i can even pass my math, did not finish my paper.

Should have gone poly back in May. wasted a year now as a result.

promos not over

Today i had the biggest shock of my life. During assembly, my principal said something about our math promo paper. He said that performance was not up to expectations, we could have done better, blah blah blah. At first I was quite happy, thought he was going to moderate our scores or something. But then, he said we all had to re-sit for the paper. This thursday. Thats why we're let off early today and there's no school tomorrow so we can study at home.

But another reason is also cause some classes had access to some notes, which others didn't have. And the notes were quite relevant to the paper. Hence the principal said that it wasn't a fair test and wanted us to do again, at the same time maybe we could do better this time round.

Then some students not happy, say they after exams very emo and don't wanna study anymore, that kinda stuff.

And ya its true, for me at least. How is it even possible to regain the momemtum which I've lost a week ago in just one and a half days? Its quite impossible as math is a subject which requires constant practice, and I've not been touching math since exactly a week ago.

There's 2 sides to this, first, I can see this as another chore, something that will make me hate school and studying more, or I can see this as another chance from God to allow me to fare better for this paper.

Well, I choose to see it as another chance, so, thank God, for giving me another chance at math.
Maybe I'll do better and get promoted next year.

Botanic gardens and movies!

Yesterday went to botanic gardens for some PE lessons. Wanted to take bus 153 straight there, then Zhi Wei said meet at Hougang Interchange. So spent about 40 min traveling there. Then when I reached there, guess what? We took bus 153. Waste my time! worse still, we didn't know where to alight, so we got off at Toa Payoh, and took a cab there. Was about an hour late, and some still haven't reached yet.

The worse is yet to come. just as we got our first clue, it started pouring and we ran to some shelter and spent an hour talking cock there. Later we buay ta han and borrowed umbrellas and went back. Took some feeder bus to Orchard. The bus was filled with ang mo and they kept looking at us for some reason. So we alighted and with my wet socks and shoes, I went back by MRT.

Then later in the evening, went to Vivocity to watch balls of fury with Chin Ting. First time I ever went to Vivo, well, I've no life, everyday go school, go home, go school, go home. So. I reached there at 5 and spent an hour walking around, and by 6 still could not finish walking the whole place. Very big. then went for the movie at 7, the movie was damn funny, don't know why it only received 3 stars.

Anyway, laughed alot during the show, many lame jokes and actions though, but still very funny. First time I went to GV @ vivio also. Then later ate dinner at Kopitiam and went home.

So anyway, today was super fun, cause got to relax, no school, no studying, and also... Movies!

random posts

Today was an ok day, at least i didn't feel so depressed. Exams are over. Tomorrow going botanic gardens.

And today had a super heavy lunch and dinner.
Had pork cutlet with rice at the Kopitiam below church. Then we went to mother church to rehearse the wedding ceremony. later went to ECP for dinner. Ate 2 plates of satay bee hoon, one plate of wonton mee and one waffle ice cream and a cup of some sour drink. Now very full.

Tomorrow, don't know how to go to botanic gardens, think its at bukit timah that area though.

And results are coming out soon. Hope to promote. Still praying.

Broke...

Bought a new wallet today at Bishan J8. Not bad, $39 for a leather Goldlion wallet. Though wanted to buy the Billabong one but too ex. Then later went to buy another pair of khaki pants, one polo tee and round neck. Spent about $100 today, now damn broke...

And just came back from church, again, ate a very full dinner. They never fail to make me eat until I feel like vomitting, so thanks all, esp Joseph and Rudy! (burp)

Don't feel like going for the botanic garden PE thingy on monday. Just want to get my results back. Going to use the whatever crappy results to kill the FREAKIN emo bug. Now, I don't feel anything, don't feel sad, nor happy, nor worried, nor excited or whatever. Don't know lah, just feel nothing. Can tell me a super funny joke now also won't laugh.

Studies. Shooting trainings. Exams. school. Feel like giving up on all of them, no thanks to the stupid emo bug.

Emo bug must die, and stop coming to me.

Hope poly got intake around this time of the year so i won't have to waste half a year doing nothing.

Emo bug got me real bad today.

I want my results back.

Dunno why, after promos supposed to feel happy, celebrate, but stupid freakin emo bug got me today. had nightmare last night, got my results back, failed, the rest i forgot.

nothing to do, so went to swim, thought got sun so can tan abit. but when i got to the pool, clouds covered the sky. the afternoon seemed like evening. no one was in the pool, so i had the entire pool to myself. swam a few laps then went up.

went online later and then Zhi Wei asked whether want to go prawning at bishan. Ok, since i had nothing on so i went. $30 for 3 hours. so me, Zhi Wei, Steven and Ye Chuan shared the rod. Rodger, Shane and Gerald were there too. reached there late cause Zhi Wei damn blur, take wrong bus and we all went one big round around AMK. Thought we could catch 20+ prawns and them BBQ them for dinner. But... we only caught one. I tried and after about 2 min I caught my first prawn. Not bad, beginner's luck.

Well, that was the one and only prawn we caught the whole afternoon. So pathetic so we let the prawn go back into the water. How to BBQ 1 prawn only, and share among 4 ppl? There got more insects than prawns.

Me and Zhi Wei


Prawning!

My 1st prawn!

Bored...

And just came back from the choir practice. Had a good supper. Was a long time since i had such a good meal, usually its me eating just something alone.

Results coming out next week. Die. How. Don't wanna fail and retain or go poly, but these things are not up to me to decide. Wish i can just get my results back now, this very moment, so i won't have to live the next week in suspence. Just get it over and done with.

Hate JC life. Sucks to the max.

SRJC - Sure Retain Junior College.

Finally its over

YAY! PROMOS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!!!!

Anyway, todays' Lit paper was a killer, everybody's essay was about 3-4 pages long, mine's only one and a half. Din't know what write. Stupid text was of no use.
ARGG!!! (pulls hair)

And, this week has gone by very quickly. Promos are finally over, too late to do anything about it now, except to pray. So, lets not keep looking back, ok?

ok.

So, no school tomorrow, going to church for the Alvin and Wendy's wedding preperation. And... I'm singing in the choir! I dont believe it. I mean, I've never enjoyed singing all my life, cause i always 'eeeeeeeee' at the high notes. So! Anyway, its for the glory of God and He doesn't care about whether our voices are great or not, its the willingness to praise him that counts.

wanted to but the Spiderman 3 DVD today, but no stock. awwww..... now I'm stuck at home with nothing to do. Too lazy to go down to swim, friends got paper tomorrow so can't disturb them, sister in school so no one to disturb. Only my laptop and TV, now also got no show. Sian.

Before exam complain, during exam also complain, now after exam still complain. Too much.

And since today's Literature text was written by Shakespear himself, here's one of my favourite songs, with the word 'Shakespear' in it. Just click on the icon above the Econs preview and it will play.

He's fought and he's fallen
He's on his knees before he's on his feet
A sinister romantic
Oh, he's about to be and she's about to see
Teachin' torches to burn bright
She's hanging on the cheek of night
A snowy dove trooping with crows
He never saw true beauty till tonight

CHORUS:
She'll take him to the brink of deliverance
Show him that much
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
So he falls in love to feel that he's falling
She'll let him know his heart
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
That's Shakespeare in love

He's fought and he's fallen
He's on his knees before he's on his feet
A glittery romantic
Oh, he's about to be and she's about to see
His bounty's boundless like the sea
His love is endless, just as deep
The more he gives the more he has
`Cause both of them are truly infinite

CHORUS:
She'll take him to the brink of deliverance
Show him that much
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
So he falls in love to feel that he's falling
She'll let him know his heart
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
That's Shakespeare in love
That's Shakespeare in love

A sinister romantic
He's on his knees before he's on his feet

CHORUS:
She'll take him to the brink of deliverance
Show him that much
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
So he falls in love to feel that he's falling
She'll let him know his heart
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
That's Shakespeare in love
That's Shakespeare in love

Literature!

Wah! just finished reading a fraction of a fraction for what I'm supposed to read for lit. thought open book exam should be quite easy, but then, saw sample question and now i dont think even with the text, i can answer the question.

Scared....

here's a sample question:

"The race of men at war with the race of titans." To what extent is this comment an adequate assessment of the play?

With close attention to language, tone and imagery, discuss the dramatic presentation of the characters and their conceptions of self and the world.

See already starting to regret taking Literature.

Pure bliss

Promos are more or less over! Results will be out in a week's time, but now, lets just enjoy whatever time we have left. Tomorrow's Lit paper is only an hour long, so will finish at 2. paper starts at 1. can sleep in tomorrow. And friday also no school, cause i don't take chemistry. yay!

See, good things come rolling in once exams are over.

And on Monday my class is going to botanic gardens for some outdoor PE stuff. Wonder what they're gonna make us do there. And I can also watch all my movies! gonna watch balls of fury, and Spiderman DVD is out already! going to buy it tomorrow. wanted to watch it in May but no time.

And don't know whats wrong with my phone, keeps on offing and can't make calls. So sms me instead, can call, but sometimes will cut off. Maybe change my phone end of this year. Maybe wait for iPhone, but abit ex, and don't know whether good to use or not.

Today's physics paper was quite ok, managed to complete with only a few blanks, don't know how to do them. think can get a C, or maybe B.

Time flies, seemed like orientation was just yesterday.

Sec school and JC

just came back form tuition, its my last one for this month, or term, cause my last paper is tomorrow! ok lah, there's literature on thursday, but that one don't need to study, open book.

Compared secondary school life and Junior College life, this was what I found out:

In sec school, we start school at 7.30 and end at 1.30,
In a JC, we start at 7.30 but end at 6.

In a sec school, lunch break is for eating and playing,
In a JC, lunch break is eating and studying.

In sec school, we wonder about what to eat for lunch,
In a JC, we find the stall with the shortest queue so we can quickly go do our work.

In a sec school, we study during lessons and slack during breaks,
In a JC, we slack during lessons and study during breaks.

In a sec school, we skip school and ask our parents to write a letter,
In a JC, we go to the polyclinic as a class and buy MCs in bulk.

In a sec school, we wished we were in a JC.
In a JC, we wished we were back in sec school.

In a sec school, exams were nothing,
In a JC, everything is everything, there's no nothing.

In a sec school, teachers tell us the politically correct answers.
In a JC, the tutors tell us everything the teachers taught us in sec school is bullshit.

Secondary school life sounds more fun huh?
but look on the bright side,
In a JC,
there's no time to ponder about these things. : )

Promos: Physcis and Literature left.

God is good!

Just came back from tuition today, prepared for physics for the paper on wednesday. Came back hungry as I did not bring enough $ for dinner, so I thought, its ok, go hungry for a night. then i went back home. Maybe God will provide a way for me.

And surprise, when i reached home, there was some leftover food left! yay! don't have to go hungry tonight. Praise the Lord!

No school tomorrow cause I don't take chemistry. Using the time to prepare for physics and literature.

Still trying to look at the bright side of life in this dark period where my world is surrounded by stress, worries, anxieties.

Promos: 2 more papers. Time flies.

D day: 25 oct. I hope it'll not be a D day for me.

And also, Happy Childrens' Day! there's a child in everyone of us!
Haven't been celebrating children's day since primary 6. I miss being a child...

This was so unexpected.

Just came back from my Math paper today. Screwed up almost the entire paper. 3 hours passed liked a minuit. Left out about 30 marks, failed to do induction, APGP, graphs, and some other topics. Surprised though, could do matrices and the differentiation thingy. thought could score in math, but now, don't think can.

So, math is gone, chinese is also gone, econs i think can scrap through, GP also, left with physics and literature.

Starting to feel better with 2 more papers to go.

D day: 25 oct

D day D day please come soon,
My life is already so ruined.
Just get it over and done with now,
Maybe I'll get to say a 'wow'.